Repetition, progress, doubles and encountering yourself.
It never fails. Each season, there’s always an episode of Mad Men
that I have trouble really attaching my mind to. I’ll watch the episode
(2-3 times), enjoy it (I mean, I enjoy basically every episode of Mad Men),
understand the general themes and ideas going on, but I’ll still leave
feeling a bit hollow or perplexed. Not necessarily because the episode
was difficult or even bad, but just because perhaps something in the
episode hasn’t completely resonated with my own life experiences—or my
own crazy head ideas.
“A Man With a Plan” was about a
variety of things. It was about doubles. It was about repeating
yourself. It was about having a plan and having it backfire; it was
about not having a plan and having it backfire. It was about how plans
and not having plans both eventually don’t matter because sometimes when
you wake up in the morning the only news that you receive is news that
Robert Kennedy has been shot; or that the police were having a shoot out
with two maniacs in Boston. And all of this happens while you’re lying
in bed planning out your weekend or deciding you need to take better
control of your finances; or it happens while you are drinking coffee
and deciding that you really should just let things be and go with the
flow a little more.
Let’s take an inventory of the plans that backfired:
- Don’s plan to control Sylvia
- Buzz Peterson’s plan to tell off Don and (especially) Roger.
- Pete’s plan to prove his worth at the Mohawk meeting
- Ted’s plan to work constructively with Don
- Megan’s plan to go on another vacation with Don (he isn’t listening)
- Don’s plan to assert his dominance over Ted
Let’s take an inventory of the freewheeling people that succeeded:
-
Bob Benson and his maybe-but-maybe-not contrived rescue of Joan that
results in Joan standing up
for his place at the company
- Peggy telling Don to “move forward”
- Pete telling his mother that it was St. Patrick’s Day so she wouldn’t leave the apartment
As last week’s episode exhibited,
there is a fine line between having a plan for your life or your
weekends and just freewheeling and ending up where your actions and
intellect take you; riding a streak of luck into a job opportunity, a
date, or a position of power. Just ask Augie March
or young Don Draper. You can make all the plans you want, but nothing
in your series of actions can completely determine what will occur in
another person’s (very likely a stranger’s or, more painful and
mysterious, a friend’s) series of actions. More often than not, you’ll
have to cancel that reservation, but that doesn’t necessarily mean you
should have never made it in the first place. Nothing happens in life
without some kind of plan—no matter how vague—behind it. However, it is
when we become reliant on plans or our desire to plan things out that
things become dangerous. That’s when you start to repeat yourself; and
no one wants to do that.
By your senior year of high
school and of college, you are usually ready to move on. That’s because
after three or four years in the same place, seeing, talking to and
avoiding the same people, you want new experiences. When I graduated
college, I was relieved, because I felt I had already begun to repeat
myself. There was only so much brooding I could do; only so many Stephen
Dedalus poses I could strike along the walkways and corridors of my
school. I knew that the only way I could continue to enjoy life; to
avoid that feeling of repetition was to graduate and move forward out
into the real world.
This is obviously an experience
shared by most people. In fact, most anyone in my generation has a
nagging sense of not wanting to repeat themselves. We get antsy after
barely a year in any job because we feel that we aren’t growing,
learning, or advancing. We don’t want to sit at our desk for another
identical year with the same title and nametag attached to our name. We
want new titles, new offices, new responsibilities and challenges—we
want newer and better salaries.
Again, there is a fine
line with wanting to move forward and with being comfortable with
repetition. Very often, repetition breeds intimacy, while constant
progress breeds loneliness and hides a fear of death. Repetition is what
life is made of and we must embrace that repetition in order to embrace
and accept death—because it is only through understanding our routines
and our habits and what we have, that we will accept not having.
In the “Scylla and Charybdis” episode of Ulysses,
Stephen Dedalus, while pontificating on Shakespeare says, “Every life
is many days, day after day. We walk through ourselves, meeting robbers,
ghosts, giants, old men, young men, wives, widows, brothers-in-law. But
always meeting ourselves.” Repetition is inevitable and so is
encountering yourself. We run into ghosts and alternate versions of
ourselves all over the place. “Oh, she got married to him, huh? If only I
had cared a little more…”
“A Man With a Plan” featured a
litany of doubles and callbacks to earlier moments of the series. Let’s
do another quick inventory:
- Don and Ted
- Roger and Jim Cutler
- Peggy and Margie
- Dawn and Don
- Pete’s philandering and Pete’s father’s philandering
- Joan showing Peggy her office just as she did in the pilot
- Harry Crane moving offices again
-
Don exerting dominance by drinking Ted under the table just as he drank
Roger under the table in
“Red in the Face” from Season 1.
- Joan and Bob have an intimate moment in the hospital like Don and Joan did in “Guy Walks into an
Advertising Agency”
- Don orders Sylvia around like he did with Bobbie Barrett in Season Two
- Roger fires Burt Cooper for a second time
- Robert Kennedy is assassinated like John Kennedy.
- Peggy tells Don to “move forward”
- Don and Ted try to pair margarine brands to their Gilligan Island counterparts.
Most
of those examples are not stretches. This episode was all about
doubles, alter egos and people repeating the same actions from years
before, but just in a slightly different way. And, as we know, Don does
not like to repetition; repetition is the same thing as a husband knocking on a front door rather than a sailor getting off a ship—it is not Eros. However, the irony is that this season Don is repeating himself more than ever.
We
are always going to be faced with the prospect of repeating ourselves
or with moving forward and leaving what we knew behind. However, if you
continue to move forward without valuing anything, without taking a
moment to repeat yourself and to understand what it is exactly that you
are doing and why—and perhaps even appreciating the merits of a certain
routine—then you are destined to feel a sense of emptiness and constant
dissatisfaction.
The more you move forward, the more you move away from the origin, from the hearth,
from where you came from. I’m not saying that in a merely geographical
sense—I’m not calling for everyone to stay or move back to their
hometowns. I suppose what I’m saying is that doing the next thing isn’t
always the answer or the best thing. And neither is having date night every
Friday or eating lunch at the same time every day. There is no right
answer. There’s always going to be a Master and you’re always going to
have to serve somebody. Routines become rituals and can very often be
sacred. And variety is the spice of life.
You can do your
best to avoid cliché, but you’re going to have a hard time communicating
with most people. In order to survive, you’re going to have to get used
to ghosts.
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